About the End of My Life

I’m an opinionated, smartass retired chef/entrepreneur from Chicago who was diagnosed with leukemia in October, 2009.  Despite great work by my medical team, I have too many complications so my prognosis is “grim.” I was left with three choices:

1. Go into the hospital and let them throw everything at this disease. There is a 94% chance I’d be dead within a year and a 100% chance I’d be sick as a dog, absolutely miserable, and likely die in the hospital from the leukemia, chemo or infection.

2. Do nothing and let nature take its course.

3. Work with my doctor to prolong the quality of my life with antibiotics, transfusions, etc., then, when it all stops working, call in home hospice and have a peaceful death at home.

Some people call me brave and/or courageous. Not true.

Option 1 is brave and courageous. Option 2 is is too final. I chose Option 3. And hell if I’m going to sit around crying in my beer about it. Instead, I’m gonna run this body into the ground, having as much fun as humanly possible along the way.

That being said, I’m ready for the next adventure. I’ve lived more in 51 years than most people could in three lifetimes. I have no regrets. I have incredible friends and family. I am one really lucky woman in that I know the end is coming and have been able to do everything I want to do.

From time to time, I write about what interests me. Over the last few years, it’s been about food. You can find Chef Karen’s Blog on WordPress.

These days, I write about me. From time to time, I’ll post my ramblings here.

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Published on March 13, 2010 at 8:49 pm  Comments (3)  

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  1. Goddess:

    I am, and will always be, your humbled friend and comrade.

    dj

  2. Karen,
    I wrote a note on your wall the other day, and was excited that you sent me a friend request (assuming you got it from the Amwest link). Your kind friend Dan send me a wall note, since I’m obviously in the dark about your condition.

    I’m truly getting tired of getting older since it comes to that stage in life where I find out dear friends have had life tragedies that make mine see small. I wish I had a magic wand to make it all right for you. You gave me the gift of your friendship, and as we pass through this world it’s the best thing a person can give and receive. I’ve been blessed to know you, and I’m glad you’re at peace with your future. Someday, we’ll meet again at the Big Surety Office in the sky! :)

    I can only hope that the doctors are making you comfortible, and I know God’s plan to take you away so soon is for a bigger need. I’m not a real “religious” person, but I do think we all have to be more than just figures on this earth.

    God Bless you, and keep in touch.
    Kindest Regards,
    Roy

  3. Karen
    you’re better looking than Ali McGraw any day.
    may every breath you take bring in the joy of knowing you are loved by so many.

    m


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